Out of Africa

Map of Africa

This Wednesday I learned about Africa in “International Relations in the Middle East and Africa” class. I felt like I juz have to tell you what I was taught. It made me touched..
Firstly, if you ever bother to look at the map of Africa, do you know why the countries’ borders often shaped straight lines? It was back then in the colonialism era when European negotiated to divide the African borders to mark which territory belongs to each of them. As Lenin had noted, through colonialism those countries were really exploited even to the highest level for hundred years. This has made their inner structure, lets say, devastated. They became very dependent to the great power countries even when they had achieved their independence. So if I can question, does sovereignty really matter?? And can you believe that the Europeans legitimized their action of colonization as to civilize the uncivilized! Esp. in the era of Renaissance (Enlightenment). I can barely accept this justification, even if it’s true to some extent that Africa has also benefited through the transfers of knowledge and technology.
Secondly, this broken structure has a great role, even hitherto to make obstacles of their development. Have you ever heard bout African diseases? It’s not only about the real disease we can obviously see like HIV, but also mental disease of the people related to bad habits, behaviors that have already been regarded as custom. Ye know what, the percentage of people suffering from AIDS in South Africa is 38%! And the lecturer told us that he got 3 larvae in his feet juz because he walked without slippers in a 5-star hotel in Ghana!! Moreover, through the air, there are 500 types of disease that can be diffused. Yeah juz imagine, even breathing can make you sick! Jeez how could one live?? I was so touched that I eventually cried in my heart (I’m not making it.. haha), it really concerns me.
Well as a closing statement I’d juz like to say that we should be grateful of whatever we have, despite our economic and political condition. I guess I’ll put more concern to Africa, at least to show that someone does care. Lets say I condemn this contemporary international system, by which we’re surrounded, where the egoistic interests and political and economic rivalry are much stronger than the proclaimed sympathy towards “A better Africa”.
.: This is FeL :.

LeGallY BloNdE.....

i'm blondeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! agak2 kekuningan sih.. tapi bodo ah... felll... jabatan gue sebagai ketua singa balikin yaa!!!! gue lebih blonde dari lu babehhhhh!!!! hehhehe...
ternyata rambut blonde itu bagus dengan dandanan smokey eyes... hihihi... nyokap en bokap gue kaget liat gue kuning abis.... gak papa lah... toh masi muda ini...

.:This is LeeN:.

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saturday nite.. we're invited! =D

Yeah it was so fun that night, hahhaha, we're eating Philipino foods!! hmm yummy, thanks to Mia she's really a good cook.. and a good singer!!! Ow my God i never thought she really has an angelic voice.. And what's so NOT (nggak banget) that night was.. alwayss.. me and Aileen!! haha we were like shy-wannabes who kept refusing to sing.. and when we started to sing.. it was like.. "DUH!!!!" coz we kept and kept on singing!! Too bad Renar and my best friend didn't have enough chance to sing.. hahaha sorry for that.. Okay i guess that's it for now, i'm gonna finish my assignment for tomorrow.. by the way i think i have to read 'The Da Vinci Code', everyone's just like suggesting it.. i'm sure it's gonna be very interesting.. i love challenge!!
.: This is FeL :.

Endless Sorrow... (by FeL)

"I'm not afraid of dying... I'm afraid of tomorrow..." ~Helen of Troy~
Endless Sorrow
~Dear God i hope you're buried next to me~

Ayumi Hamasaki- Because of You
Aenai jikan ni omoi ga tsunotta
Todokanai koe ni kokoro ga itanda
Kimi o shiranakatta koro ni modorenaku natte iru
Doushite tokidoki sunao ni ienai?
Doushite tokidoki yasashiku narenai?
Doushite tokidoki kizutsuke atteru?
Doushite tokidoki tashikame atteru?
Doushite tokidoki konnani kurushii?
Doushite itsudemo konnani itoshii?
Kimi ja nakya dame de
Kimi ja nakya dame de

Translations:
My love grew when we couldn't meet
My heart ached because my voice didn't reach you
I find I can't go back to the times when I didn't know you
Why sometimes I can't say honestly?
Why sometimes I can't be tender?
Why sometimes we hurt each other?
Why sometimes we check each other?
Why sometimes my heart aches so much?
Why always my heart goes out to you?
I can't think of anyone but you
I can't think of anyone but you

Dear Diary...Today...

felli chayankkkk.... hari ini kita asik banget jalan2 ampe sore trus diundang makan pula sama mia... duhh asiknya... kita hari ini beli kacamata kembar... warnanya gak hitam... tapi coklat muda kekuningan (kok agak2 ilfil ya kalo men discribe warnanya)... KEMBAR???!!!! AGAIN???!!! setelah baju kita yang kembar... sendal kembar... initial bandul kembar... tas kembar????!!!! kita kalo jalan di mall aja uda dikirain ade kaka.... hahahhaha.... terlalu banyak yang kembar dalam hidup kita... kalo lu atau gue nginep2an.. kita masing2 gak perlu bawa apa2.. cuma sikat gigi en baju... selebihnya smua uda ada di rumah masing2... toner kita merknya sama... conditioner kita... make up kita.... sabun cuci muka... duh... smua sama... tinggal bawa diri aja deh kalo mau nginep..... pokoknya fel... gak ada deh temen lain yang bisa nandingin lu sebagai temen gue yang punya selera yang sama... hehehe... you will always be my sista babe...

.:This is LeeN:.

ThX My FrieNd...

Ferris Hilton darling... thank you chayank.... karena uda ngirimin makanan ke rumah gue... rasanya rumah gue ama lu tuh deket banget... padahal jauhnya.... hm..... gue terharu sekali..... rasanya saat lu tiba di rumah gue... gue mau bawa tissue buat lap air mata buaya gue... well... gue seneng banget bisa punya temen kaya lu... luv u hun... rasanya semua pepatah tentang true friendship itu bisa gue dapetin dalam diri seorang ferris hilton.. hahahha...
pokoknya.. selama beberapa bulan ini... gue tau banget manja2nya lu... carenya lu... jalan pikiran lu.. perasaan lu... segala kebiasaan buruk lu... selera lu...hahahhah... gue tau bangetttt....

fel... apapun pendapat lu tentang "L O V E" gue tau sebenernya lu gak selalu berpikir sedingin itu... sekarang ini perasaan lu lagi rapuh aja.. makanya lu berusaha tegar dengan pikiran2 rasional lu.. (dasar anak HI)... well hun... whenever u need me... i'll always beside u.. give my shoulder to cry on... take off your mask and let me hear your voice from your heart... okay hun??? luv u dear....

~"A true friend is one who is concerned about what we are becoming, who sees beyond the present relationship, and who cares deeply about us as a whole person."
~"Thats what a friend is for, when your lost in darkness and searching for the light, to help you through those lonely nights, when everything around you fails just hold out your hand, and i'll come running, thats what a friend is for."

.:This is LeeN:.

love...love...
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FeL’s thoughts about L O V E

I’ve always wanted to share my view about love, and finally I have the chance. I realize that I may not be a hundred percent objective, but hereby I’d like to present different points of view. How can you describe love? Does it really exist? I know that there’s so much you’ve heard about love, and you might think you know pretty well, but have you ever thought that love itself could be a constructed reality? It’s the idea of demystification, to bring something that is actually unreal to be real, and this is how love became a truth. Who defines truth? I say, reality is formed, constructed. And in accordance to Der Derian, truth comes from an unchallenged interpretation. What is love anyway? It doesn’t have a certain form.
Hm I bet liberalist thoughts will never agree with it, since they value individualism, that’s why it is believed that human should be free to love, to feel what the others can’t feel in the same way. Erich Fromm suggests it is a family where parents take the responsibility to teach their children reason in an atmosphere of love. I myself believe that we’re told to love (as well as to hate) ever since we were children, and we never challenged the idea of its existence, thus it continues to exist. In my opinion, love is not something given (something that’s already there), but is a constructed reality. Love relates to the notions of subjectivism by which it is new to the self-construction of imagination.
However, I like these constructed feelings, feelings of love that each human beings can experience. We can’t resist or afford to compete against this so-called constructed reality in our system, right? So to conclude, insofar it exists, just enjoy your kind of loving =). And I guess we should be honest to ourselves (hey why do I in the end support individualism?? Hahaha…). Aaahh enough of these thingy of fully-constructed world.. it kinda makes me crazy a lil bit, haha.. I’m so sleepy right now, off to bed..
~ Dear God I hope you’re buried next to me ~
.: This is FeL :.

My Boo....Fur someone that I luv...

There's always that one person
that will always have your heart
you'll never see it coming
cause you're blinded from the start
know that you're the one for me
it's clear for everyone to see
ooh baby....you'll always be my boo...

i don't know bout cha'll
but i know about us
this is the only way
we know how to rock
i don't know bout cha'll
but i know about us
this is the only way
we know how to rock

do you remember girl
i was the one who gave you your first kiss
cause i remember girl
i was the one who said put your lips like this
even before all the fame and
people screaming yous name
girl i was there when you were my baby...

it started when we were younger
you were mine.. my boo
now another brother's taking over
but it's still in your eyes.. my boo
even though we used to argue it's alright
i know we haven't seen each other
in a while but you will always be my boo...

i was in love with you when we were younger
you were mine... my boo
and i see it from time to time
i still feel like.. my boo
and i can see it no matter
how i try to hide... my boo
even though there's another man who's in my life
you will always be my boo...

yes i remember boy
cause after we kissed
i could only think about your lips
yes i remember boy
the moment i knew you were the one
i could spend my life with
even before all the fame
and people screaming your name
i was there and you were my baby...

First time as bloggers! Yeahhh...

Izziiiiiiiiiiiiii... pizza? fetuccini?

Fel: ahhhh leen akhirnya jadi jugaaaaa gile cape nih malah kaga kerjain tugas..
Leen: emaaaaannnnnnnggggg, padahal gue ud bawa bahan nihhhh..
Fel: eh kita tulis tulis segini dulu aj deh.. kapan ngobrolnya nih.. hueeeeehhhhh..
Leen: ok ok eh rambut lo kok kya boneka bgt sih..
Fel: ah masa sihh..?? lucu dong..
Leen: sudahlah gue mandi dulu hahaha.. ini kok ga penting ya..
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at Starbucks EX
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